I feel deeply inspired today. Yesterday I read this: http://findinglogos.blogspot.com/2011/06/practice-and-passion-are-all-youll-ever.html?spref=fb and it made me start thinking about what I would like to excel in. It made me think about what I'm willing to do to achieve it. Today I watched this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ir3m6y7JXF0&feature=share which was also posted by the same person. This video helped me get over the inertia I had in regards to taking action
As optimistic a person I am, I have a tendency to really put a lot of stuff in my way in regards to achieving my goals. I tend to find really good reasons NOT to do something. So when I read Camilo's blog discussing the idea that all I need to do is practice until I can reach a certain threshold of hours, I thought, "Excellent! How inspiring! Too bad I can't do this." I knew that it made sense from all of my metaphysical, pseudo-religious truth that I have discovered in my life time, but I had serious doubts in my ability to do it. I have tons of good ideas and plenty of good intentions, but I often think that I just don't have the right stuff to push me through at the end of the day. For a person who wants to be brave and courageous, I often give into my anxieties.
However, I know (in my knowledge of truth) that I do not need to be ready to take on the journey. If adventures were only open to those who were already totally prepared then there would be no need of adventure because there would be nothing to teach.
So I am setting myself a challenge. To track the hours that I decide to train in my pursuits. There are a few things that stand out that I really want to become proficient in and so I think that I will fix those as goals for myself. Goals may change as the journey unfolds.
Today I'm calling my Tio David about the boat that his friend and neighbor is trying to get rid of. Once I obtain a boat capable of sailing I will start logging the hours I spend on training in that discipline. I'm very excited about the way I have attracted this into my life and I'm confident that this will work out well.
One of the other disciplines I hope to train in is writing. I have the capacity to tell great stories, write philosophical essays, and expose my poetic heart. For the longest time my excuse for not engaging in writing anymore is that I'm not good enough at it. So then the answer is that I must practice and this challenge is a perfect opportunity.
I have another goal. It feels silly to think about it because I have doubts in my lack of physical skill. Despite this, I would like to become a better swordsman. I would like to learn cutlass and broadsword and spear and all sorts of hand to hand weaponry. I am attracted to it for some reason though I often feel awkward in the endeavor. So I'm debating putting this up as a goal, but nonetheless I think I should track it.
I really liked the video's talk about leaps of faith. I know deep down that what I need will be provided or inspired in me; that a way will be made out of no way if I only begin. I want to hold onto that feeling I had while watching it. The feeling of motivation that pushed me to even write this post.
Time to go leap.
